His inspiration lives on......

I just found out that last friday (26th July 2008), one of the many who inspires me has moved on... GOD bless his soul. I was so inspired by this person I made an entry about him.

Dr. Randy Pausch was a brilliant man, I respected him for that, even more so, I was inspired his perspectives on life and how to live it. His "Experience is what you get when you don't get what you wanted" is deeply ingrained within me. You see, Dr. Randy suffered from pancreatic cancer and no matter what happened subsequently, he decided to live his remaining days being positive and living it in accordance to what is important to him. For those are not familiar, Dr. Randy is famous for many things, and the one which struck out the most is his "Last Lecture" speech at Carnegie Melon. This man is so generous. I still remember the part of the video where the whole lecture hall is focused on him and he decided to focus that attention to his wife.. whose birthday was shadowed by his lecture. So, he brought his wife up, brought in the cake and sang happy birthday to her... and this was the time where he was suppose to give his last lecture at Carnegie.

In his "Last Lecture", vivid images of him telling how to live life was inspiring. It humbled me, and sort of extracted me from my need for material things and how sometimes I place it above to those above me. Randy woke me up with his inspiring speech. He touched my life and changed my life by just living his. And the funny truth is that he didn't even mean to teach the lesson to the rest of us.... all he wanted was to give that speech to his kids; and in doing so, he touched millions of lives; mine included.

Here's to Dr. Randy Pausch.
May he rest in peace with GOD.
And may his inspiration live on deep within us.
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My condolences to his wife and kids.

Here is the link of his passing.
A few more links which serves as a memorial for Randy Pausch
- from Carnegie Melon
- from Wikipedia

Relentless Discovery....

To ignite oneself is not the most easy thing to be done,
especially when one lay deep within the cinder ash of the once burning flames.
Yes, I am still trying to find myself among the sooty cinder ash,
Digging and sifting through with an eternal hope to discover that part of me to re-ignite.
Trying to find that combustible piece to flint a spark towards that once lost passion.

Indeed, current circumstances and thoughts are calmer,
where ripples losing momentum to a standstill,
enabling reflections which mimics itself upward.
I am sad to admit of my progress or more aptly my stagnation.
I have yet to be independently driven on a personal level.
I have yet to discover passions which will propel me,
I remain easily unamused to most circumstances and situations.
Yet, I am determined to be relentless in this pursuit for passion.

Indeed, I need to....
Otherwise I will remain in the monotonous state of mediocrety and emptiness...
which will ultimately consume me.

For now, I can only pray that I discover passion,
Either that, or pray for passion to find me....
:)

State of constant flux

That is the only way I can describe the past few months.
Multiple dynamic streams of intertwined circumstances and situations engulfs my senses;
These events are overwhelming... in a good way.
Can feel my inner being inching towards the so desired state of equilibrium.

On the vocational foreground, steep learning curves positions me in precarious circumstances... in a good way,
Keeps the inquisitive nature within me occupied in a constructive manner.

On the personal background, familiar activities and close ties are regaining the once lost footing. I am gaining some traction towards my personal goals, though the progress encountered are minuscule. Still, its heading towards a bearing I would like to motion towards.

On the emotional underground, quakes has cracked strings of crevices across my soul where waves of kaleidoscopic incidences exposes the tender side of me, pitting me to face up to circumstances I once avoided.

Such are the reflections of the past few months. Simply put, I am currently threading in a vortex of Constant Flux! How exciting! :P