Tai Chi

First and foremost it is not what you think, I am not going into that…. In fact the more I see or say it, The more I despise it. I despise it not for its health benefits, I despise it not for its graceful movements, I despise it not for its self defense…. Actually, I despise it for its self defense properties. Let me explain.

Around the world, Tai Chi is a graceful art of self defense and exercise. Here where I live, it has a second connotation. Here Tai Chi also referred to as the art of deflecting or escaping responsibilities. I am implore anyone who reads this…. DO NOT TAI CHI YOUR WORK TO OTHERS!!!! It is damn irritating. Please grow up and take responsibility as you are assigned.

I had an unusual displeasure of experiencing such atrocious situation It happened when a call for help reached out to me to manage a logistics for a meeting. As I was busy, I politely declined. However, due to this person’s being out of the country at the setup time and persistence, I finally agreed. Little did I know that there was more to come. When the meeting came, This were set up and done with. But this person decided to push the envelope.

First it was the meeting briefing to participants, Again, this person asked me (or tai chi-ed) to do the briefing. Without much hesitation, I did. I was there, and could spare 5 minutes. Then came the second briefing, Again, I was again Tai Chi-ed to do the briefing. I did. Came the third, This person had to arrange for logistics after the meeting. Up came this person expecting me to do it, Since I did the setup this person must have thought. But I had other things to do so I couldn’t do it. Then came the fourth, Again I was tai chi-ed to give another briefing. I got annoyed and declined. Thinking that persistence would work again, This person kept on Tai Chi-ing the 3rd briefing to me. Standing steadfast I declined (Which part of NO does this person not understand, the “N” or the “O”?)

Seeing that this was getting nowhere
This person showed the bratty side and stormed off.
Eventually, this person did the briefing but manage to tai chi the logistics to another.
For the rest of the evening, I was given the cold shoulder and bratty face.
After the meeting as everyone (including me) packing up,
This person, the Project Manager, hid in a room and not lend a hand.
I know that there are other work to be done,
But so does everyone.

I FAIL to understand the premise of this attitude.
Project Manage means you have to ensure that things go well,
And if need be, get the hands abit dirty to get the job done,
NOT Tai Chi work and show bratty faces when things don’t go your way.

So, dear readers PLEASE DO NOT TAI CHI YOUR RESPONSIBILITIES TO OTHERS.
It pisses off others when they do the work and you are not contributing.

Winds of change

The time has dawn down on me once again...
inevitably forcing me to change.
Things around me are no longer the same,
yet my inherent nature wants to remain the same,
But my inner thoughts dictates that if I don't (change),
it will lead me to my peril.

The signs are already showing.....
Seems that I have fallen off my previous path which drive me.....
Oh so desperately I run to climb back on....













Still running...
Still panting...
Gasping for air...
My legs burning....
Heart throbbing...
Losing focus...

The darker part of me tells me to just forget it....
"You lost your groove.....aint gonna get it back"

Yet another stands steadfast encouraging me,
"Persistence will bring its rewards..... Soldier on...."

Each day that voice carries me through another....
Cradling me when stumble...
Nursing me when I bleed...
Pushing me when I get fatigue....
I am praying that it will not stop

... till I get my groove back....

I am soo blessed!!!

I realise that I am.....

...not the most easy person to live with,
...bottle up,
...show my temper in silence,
...get disengaged when things dont go my way,
...impatient,
...stubborn.

But I am blessed with those around me
who put up with my imperfections,
and I have alot to be thankful for.

For that, I would like to thank all of the one(s) who,
...helps me constantly regardless of my situation,
...puts up with my temper,
...is supremely patient with me,
...lends a listening ear when I am ranting,
...guides me when I am lost,
...accompanies me when I am lost,
...pushes me when I get complacent,
...motivates me when I get lazy,
...inspires me when I drift aimlessly,
...helps me see above and beyond my peripheral vision,
...nurses me when I am sick,
...provides for me when empty,
...makes me whole when parts of me are missing.

I THANK ALL OF YOU for being there when I needed you most.

Most of all I thank GOD for rounding these outstanding individuals to aide me.

Bless you all.

My Journey's End

I know not what destination this path is leading me
I know not what characters I will be meeting
I do pray that I am able to see the destination of which its
trials and tribulations has obstructed my enjoyment of the journey.

Though they say that the destination matters not,
Tis the journey that matters,
At this current moment,
I beg to differ as
the destination will make the hardships and tribulations easier to endure.

This path is a full of characters, though
the journey seems filled with acquaintances which are distant.
Perhaps tis within I shall have to look and understand
Before my self expectations are imposed on to others,
for at times I fail to even understand what drives me to behave the way I do.

For that I do seek help,
to reconcile and understand my internal turmoils,
to focus on things which matters to me,
to lead myself towards the journey I desire,
So I may live free and meaningful.

For this I pray this understanding shall be granted to me,
So I may enjoy a fruitful journey towards my destination.
And through this journey, I seek to find the companions and partners
Which will forever enrich my life till my journey's end.

Still water runs deep...

Frustrations plunders my inner sanctuary,

Yet I do not allow the shattering depths of myself to surface.

Tranquility and Turmoil sharing my inner real estate.

It seems the walls which bounded me remains erected,

Imprisoning me from my desired freedom.

Chains which I once broke free from,

Are once again shackled at my ankles.

When will I be able to break free.

Am I able to break free?

In all the inner commotion,

All is calm on the surface.

Landscape remains flat with no notion of emotion.

Faceless expression shows no form of depression,

Yet there is a sense of dread which is under.

How will I break free?

When will I break free?

That is what remains unanswered.

Till the end I will know,

The true form of freedom will show.

Tis that time I can truely be free.

From my inner sanctuary.