Still water runs deep...

Frustrations plunders my inner sanctuary,

Yet I do not allow the shattering depths of myself to surface.

Tranquility and Turmoil sharing my inner real estate.

It seems the walls which bounded me remains erected,

Imprisoning me from my desired freedom.

Chains which I once broke free from,

Are once again shackled at my ankles.

When will I be able to break free.

Am I able to break free?

In all the inner commotion,

All is calm on the surface.

Landscape remains flat with no notion of emotion.

Faceless expression shows no form of depression,

Yet there is a sense of dread which is under.

How will I break free?

When will I break free?

That is what remains unanswered.

Till the end I will know,

The true form of freedom will show.

Tis that time I can truely be free.

From my inner sanctuary.

The Road Ahead...

Hmm.. seems that the only time I write is
when I face uncertainties and challenges
Its that time again when I have to pen my thoughts.
I am again facing uncertainties,
Seems that I have fallen out of a relationship.
Just counldn't work it out and expectations on both ends didn't match.
Distance from my end was growing.
Things which I should have spoken, I didn't.
Guess that part of me still needs some work.
[note to self, need to improve on personal communication to others]

And to be fair she tried,
just that I kept her guessing me for far too long.
But the thing which broke it was her trip....
or shall I say trips.
Those decisions made didn't involve me,
and I felt it should have.
Afterall, we were in a relationship
and any decisions made had to take to the other into account.
And that didn't happen.

We were on different paths.
And for one brief period,
we were on parallel tracks.
And now those tracks are parting.
I guess its for the better.
And the decision was at least quick and clear.

Though there some sadness in me,
I am managing it.
And I am grateful [to God] to be given this experience.
Wouldn't change a thing if I had to redo any of it,
for I know HE has planned this for me to learn and grow.
Preparing me for my next relationship.
(Thank YOU Lord for this experience,
I know YOU are always looking out for my interest)

Now I continue my journey...
Hopefully the next experience,
I am able to embrace some constant in my relationship.
....